Currently Listening Back to Black By Amy Winehouse you know i'm no good see related

poor xanga...

poor xanga, you are so neglected... i have not been faithful to update you like i should. i wish i had more time too, but when i do have time, my mind is so exhausted, it's run out of all it's clever quips and funny tales.... that is, if there were any. oh, i suppose i could try to imagine up a new story of some kind, but then i don't anyone else but you and me would get it, silly old blog....

so, what can i say today, to tide you over 'til who knows when? hmm.... well, i LOVE my new job! i am so excited to be there! it's so much fun, a lot of hard work, mind you, but a ton of fun! i'm looking for a place of my own... i'm in need of a church home... and there's a whole bunch of other stuff going on that's just too random to pin down with a name right now....

the sun comes through...

Currently Listening Clouds Are Forming kindness see related

open window...

so...[i've noticed i start almost all my posts with "so"] a window opened... the light is falling in and bringing a bit of hope to this temporary dark time. it's still raining and that makes my soul content... God is so good, even in the most stormy of times. He has been teaching, showing, and challenging me with so much. we've been going through ecclesiastes recently and it's been so encouraging. i know most of the time when you read ecclesiastes, it may seem depressing, but through all the "meaningless" things Solomon talks about, it reveals how much we desperately need God. when you boil it all down, life truly has no value, meaning, or worth unless God gives it. He brings meaning to life. and the other comforting part of that is that He is in control. we don't have to know what He's up to for our life to have meaning. yielding to Him and being a tool in His plan gives us purpose and meaning.

i don't know if that all makes sense or not, but it was just a blessing to know, i'm not in control....i don't have to worry.

open up the skies of mercy, rain down Your cleansing flood. healing waters rise around us, hear our cries, Lord. let 'em rise.... it's Your kindness, Lord, that leads us to repentance, Your favor, Lord, is our desire, and it's Your beauty, Lord, that makes us stand in silence. Your love, Your love, is better than life.... 

Currently Listening La Revancha del Tango By Gotan Project see related

it's raining

so...life

i am terrible at updating this thing anymore....

so, i graduated. yippee.... i'll be working this summer and moving out... so the house hunt will begin in a little while. graduation was good, but crazy. i have 2 B's, an A, and a C. i just pray that C doesn't come back to bite me... i'm only worried about it because it was in one of my most difficult and crucial design classes. so who knows, i may get sucked back in. but i already walked across the stage... my family threw me a surprise graduation party, which was fun. i saw a lot of old friends and some of my former teachers.

i went to a wedding today. one of my friends that i've known since we were in 6th grade got married today. so weird. it's weird to see people grow up and then it's even weirder to realize that you're growing up yourself. then you're mind warps through the years remembering fondly on some memories and wincing at others. crazy what happens in life....

so....now what? what do you do after you finish school? am i crazy enough to want to go back? or am i daring enough to jump out of the comfortable school/work juggling act and just settle for a routine? i dunno.... all i want to do is sleep.